i’ve been busy at work. more days, more money but always tired and 15 minutes late to everything else.

i’ve also come to some revelations about my personal relationships and i’ve made long term goals for my future..and some short turn ones. plans that make sense and plans that for once in my life, i don’t cringe at and actually look forward to.

i want to share this karl lagerfeld quote because i love him, and because it’s NYC fashion week: “fashion is, like cinema, a business of injustice. it’s not because you want to work in fashion that it will work out. you succeed for other mysterious reasons. it’s not about fairness, it’s just a horrible fact of life. my business plan has always been about working more than the others to prove their uselessness.”

that’s it for now. eat, love, smile

the true romantics loves snow white for its pure dame-in-distress-saved-by-a-kiss heroism.

the down on their luck dream of cinderella for the way a man can change their life and lifestyle.

the drama queens enjoy the little mermaid for its ability for two people to overcome differences and end up together (very romeo and juliet with scales.)

my favorite was and always will be Lady and the Tramp (yes, Michelle: crazy dog lady.) the tramp was the baaaaad boy, the rebel, if you will. he lured lady away from her cushy middle-upper class properly groomed lifestyle and took her through the slums. she got dirty, ate spaghetti, kissed inappropriately and even landed in doggy jail. i mean seriously, imagine snow white doing all that! but tramp introduced lady to a way of life she was never aware existed, kind of like a cultural education. lady, meanwhile, took it all in stride and eventually put away her manicured puppy-tail and learned to enjoy the experience.

i think that’s what a better half is suppose to do for you. help you experience something new so that you can strengthen yourself.

this is not my valentines day single gal rant (since technically it’s the 15th), but rather the fruit of being inspired by a string of random events all shining their spotlight on my singleness: two, count them, TWO engagement parties this weekend, being forced to watch ‘he’s just not that into you’, and being asked at the trader joe’s what i was cooking for valentines day dinner. (what the fuck do you think the can of organic spaghetti-o’s are for idiot!?)

when natasha was in town this weekend, we had several discussions regarding relationships in our stage of life. (all over really ridiculously good meals, btw.) i’m an alpha personality, and i will always be attracted to alpha personalities. sparks usually fly fast and furious but it usually overheats into a giant molten mess. i have fought my whole relationship life to allow anyone to “take care of me,” and yet now it seems all of my friends who are settling down (or marrying) are doing it with the men who are the “taker-carers.” they use to date the life of the parties, the funny guys, guys with personalities and edge; now the boyfriends seem….vanilla (don’t get me wrong, they’re all likable people.) and now i’ve been plunged into one of those confused contemplative states regarding my ever-single self.

i HATE men who try to take care of me. for fuck’s sake, i can buy my own damn groceries! i like to bicker and jab a little- okay, a LOT (maybe i might have spent too much time in the men’s locker room.) i want someone who’s gonna push me to experience something i never thought to try. (and not in the my boyfriend loves the bears, so i totally love the bears kind of way.) but obviously my current path has lead me to flick off gennifer goodwin in the middle of ‘he’s not that into you.’ so what’s the alternative? find someone who wants to “take care of me” and then be all excited and gitty mistaking serenity for boredom? (sorry, was that cynical?)

SO, is ANY companionship better than none? should i lay off the spark-flying flaming hot cheetos and try a nilla wafer? ultimately, is it price charming or the tramp?